The Divine Mr. M

~Even though it is the middle of the day, I'm the only one in this house awake now. Le-Le and all the kitties sleep. It is bright and sunny outside, but the wind is cold and it's blowing and howling like it was midnight on the fucking moors.

Mercury went Retrograde on Saturday night around half eleven. I could feel it when I woke up a few hours later. With all the political insanity that is coming to boil, I think something is going to pop. I thought I 'knew' what, but now I am uncertain. But something is coming and, given all the players, it will probably be pretty fucking awful.

I am emotionally drained and fighting off my usual Holiday Depression. I tried working on The Liber, but right now I simply do not have it in me. I've also realized it needs more work than I'd been thinking. Whole sections need serious editing /sigh

Anyway, that's my story for now and I'm sticking to it...

E keeps shouting at me, “Finish The Book! Finish The Book! Finish The Book!”

~Y'all will see I've re-posted nearly all of the parts of The Explanation out of Blogpot and into Live Journal and Dreamwidth. Haven't done Part Eight: Summation because it's a fucking mess at the moment nor either 'Addendum' because I need to transfer graphics with them and I'm too tired to fuck with that right now.

I found this quote to myself from about two years ago, “Writing a Holy Book is no fucking joke and some of the damned things take several authors and two or three centuries to finish, so chill the fuck out, dude!” I'd say that is a good thing to keep in mind. It was been roughly six years now that I've been working on the thing. We've endured a lot of shit in that time.

Speaking of time...”This day is designated as The Temple's birthday because it was on this day eleven years ago that the words The Temple of The Pentavalent were first written down and that seem an appropriate enough landmark as such was an 'invocation' in my books.

The Context: I was residing in a sober living house in West LA marking time while waiting for my Section Eight Housing to come through. I was a year into being homeless and coming up on ten years of Sobriety, which made living with newcomers a bit of a nightmare. At any given moment, I had ten times more Sober Time than every other resident combined. And I confess I've never had much patience with Active User Drama, even back when I myself was using.

The Specificity: Back in March of that year, while I was still in the Santa Monica Shelter, I'd had a long phone call with my dear Kat. I'd just had the final confrontation with Amy, the very last Candidate for being The One I've been involved with, and was bitching and moaning about her fecklessness, although that was not among the words I used to describe her at the time.

Kat said, more or less, "She doesn't deserve you...you should really have twenty women." She called that a 'house of twenty' or H20. We laughed about that..and it got filed away.

I cannot remember exactly what brought that up those few months later. Probably something to do with one of the various phone sex relationships I was having with gals I'd met on-line. There were three during this period, all very intense early twentysomething 'sub gals', each of which I remember quite clearly. [I should expound upon them one day, not here or now]”

That chuck of text is three years old, but it's still completely valid. I actually am in rather better shape than I was when I wrote it. That was a day short of two months after we'd had to abandon our old house on Sonja Drive and we were still pretty fried by that move and the whole series of events that led up to it.

*seven hours pass*

I suppose I should finish this up and post it while it is still August 30th.

While I work on a big monitor, I note that many of you do your Internet from an iPad or iPhone, so I'm taking the parts of The Explanation I've posted so far and making 'e-mail ready' messages that each contain the entire text of each part to make it easier to read on those devices. If you're interested, send me your e-mail addy in a PM on whatever platform you're reading this and I'll send them to you in numbered, ordered sequence.

...and so it is.

Edit: Okay, I posted Addendum A [Calendar for A New Matriarchy] above and Addendum B [The Temple's Flag] too, but only here, not on LJ because the flag would get lost against the black background.

~A year has passed since the last State of The Explanation post and a number of things have been sorted out in the interim. Over the course of that year I decided to leave Part Four:“Building a New Matriarchy – Grand Strategy” largely as is – though it does need some tinkering – and put all the epistemological heavy lifting in Part Eight – “Summation”. I just did a major edit/rewrite of the Preface. And I've been slowly, but steadily working on the novella that shall constitute the entirely new Part Seven – “One Possible Future”.

As I said last time, "the entrees at E Speaks are ‘finalized’, though I’m sure I’ll fiddle with them a bit more. [I have and will] The entrees at Blogspot are still being edited, rewritten, worked on, etc. except for The Trikona which I’m fairly happy with. The Addendums are complete as is. [The titles as listed here are the final titles]" For the most part - with one major exception and few minor ones - that is still the case." That is unchanged, though I am going to shift all the Blogspot entrees to LJ and DW.

I did make one major structural change. The Basic Tenets now come before the Preface. I believe that will give the latter greater context.

Basic Tenets of The Temple of The Pentavalent
http://e-speaks.livejournal.com/114401.html [unchanged since 2/13]

Her Prophet Explains: “Preface”
http://nebris.livejournal.com/7659448.html
~I had become unhappy with the 'flippancy' of this in that previous year. A few days before this posting I did a major edit/rewrite. The beginning and the end are still mostly the same. But the 'overly flippant' portion in the middle that bothered me is gone, replace by more extensive and far tougher text.

Part One: Revealed Knowledge, The Pentavalent and a New Matriarchy
http://e-speaks.livejournal.com/112814.html [unchanged since 2/13]

Part Two: The End of Men
http://e-speaks.livejournal.com/113106.html [unchanged since 2/13]

Part Three: “Building a New Matriarchy – Metaphysics”
http://e-speaks.livejournal.com/113359.html [unchanged since 2/13]

Part Four: “Building a New Matriarchy – Grand Strategy”
http://theexplanation-nebris.blogspot.com/2011/09/her-prophet-explains-part-three-temples.html

EDIT on 4/11/14: ~I was just reading through Part Four: “Building a New Matriarchy – Grand Strategy” and I realized that the thing actually works 'as is'...which brought up the dilemma of what to do about the required “critiquing and expounding upon the work of four of the most important Writers and Thinkers of Second Wave Feminism” etc. To stick all that into Part Four could actually distract and even derail the 'narrative thrust'. It IS some pretty heavy intellectual lifting, which is a big part of why I've been 'stuck'.

But it came to me rather quickly; stick all that epistemological blather in Part Eight – “Summation”. It does need to be related to provide greater depth to the overall context, but putting it at the 'tail [tale?] end' allows it to processed after said overall context has been more or less absorbed.

Part Five: “Building a New Matriarchy – Tactical Initiatives”
http://theexplanation-nebris.blogspot.com/2011/09/her-prophet-explains-part-four-temples.html

~Part Five essentially requires more details about the various Tactical Initiatives and also some illustrations of Stage Three of The First Karaal, which I promise will be nifty. [unchanged since 2/13]

Part Six: “Building a New Matriarchy – The Trikona”
http://theexplanation-nebris.blogspot.com/2011/09/her-prophet-explains-part-five-trikona.html

~As I said above, I am pleased with this as it stands. [unchanged since 2/13]

Part Seven – “One Possible Future”

~A year ago I said, "I have thrown out all of Part Seven – “One Possible Future” and also Addendum A: [Tales of the Vekkan Cults]. That's about 38,000 words out the window, which cuts the present word count roughly in half. Well, I haven't really 'thrown them out', just removed them from The Explanation. They will mostly get posted in a separate volume of Sisterhood stories, though some may simply remain unfinished. [This is not the creation of an Apocrypha, but is more akin to The Suras, in that such is a form of 'commentary' that is still relevant to, and is in fact an enhancement of, Canon.]

This is my reasoning. Part Seven as it stood had become unwieldy; too many unfinished stories, too much rewriting to do, and, as so often happens with Science Fiction, much of the science has outstripped the fiction. Instead of trying to fix the whole mess, I have chosen to restart from square one.

About three months ago I started a new novella to take its place, with a single central character whose life covers the major epochs of The Sisterhood. I realized too that this will be more effective because, unlike the original Part Seven, it is a single narrative and therefore will flow more easily. With multiple stories and characters, there is the tendency to put the book down between tales.

With the removal of the multistory Part Seven, the rational for including Tales of the Vekkan Cults was largely gone. So, it needed go as well. [That moved the 'new' Addendum B and Addendum C up to Addendum A and Addendum B] /end

All that still applies. In the interim I have been slowly, but steadily working upon the aforementioned novella.

Part Eight – “Summation”
http://theexplanation-nebris.blogspot.com/2011/09/her-prophet-explains-part-seven.html

~I took a big chunk of the Summation and edited it into Part Two. I now need to re-expand it with some new material and also blend in the old Addendum C [The Individual and The Hive]. http://nebris.livejournal.com/7610428.html ...and then there is this:

~I had said back in Feb 2013, “At the moment, Part Four is where I am..well, not so much ‘stuck’ as deep ‘in process’. I said a while back: “I do cut myself some slack in that I’m doing a harsh critique of Victim Feminism, the damage done to the Feminist Movement by Andrea Dworkin and Catherine MacKinnan, how so-called Rape Culture is actually organic to Male thinking [Dworkin didn't go far enough in that regard] and a look at how Modern Feminism failed politically both with its support of Prohibition and its abandonment of basic Marxist thinking. At the root of nearly all of these issues is that Puritanism [always a tool of Patriarchy] is still deeply embedded in Modern American Feminist philosophy.” ”

Well, that was a fucking understatement. And, in the interim, I have also come to realize the need to weave in the work of Shulamith Firestone and Donna Haraway because both are essential to our Work. To leave their work unmentioned would create a massive blank space in the epistemology of The Temple.

Therefore, what I am facing here is critiquing and expounding upon the work of four of the most important Writers and Thinkers of Second Wave Feminism. To do what I need to do with their work requires some serious fucking Scholarship. *sigh* Effectively, at this point, I AM stuck..."

~Today [July 28, 2015]: I likely am still kind of 'stuck' in the above regard. A lot of 'serious fucking Scholarship' is still required, though no longer having to wedge it into Part Four will make my life far easier. The Summation has a much looser structure which will let me do 'plug in' without making too much of a mess.

Addendum A [Calendar for A New Matriarchy]
http://theexplanation-nebris.blogspot.com/2011/09/her-prophet-explains-addendum-d.html

Addendum B [The Temple's Flag]
http://theexplanation-nebris.blogspot.com/2011/09/her-prophet-explains-addendum-e-temples.html

As before, for those who are interested, the process by which this is taking place can be followed at Her Prophet Blathers About Re-Writes.

..comment to a Sister who is presently volunteering at a rape crisis center..

"This has also reignited my thinking on how Rape Culture is a feature, not a bug, of Patriarchy. I know in my guts, in my fucking balls, how true that is. And how a lot of what I call Victim Feminism is a both an acknowledgment of that and yet also a denial of what that really means because it advocates 'half measures' in dealing with the logical harsh solutions. In the end, laws and social custom will not restrain my Brother's deep embedded desire you hunt you as sexual prey."

[see The State of The Explanation 2.0 for context]

~I was just reading through Part Four: “Building a New Matriarchy – Grand Strategy” and I realized that the thing actually works 'as is'...which brought up the dilemma of what to do about the required “critiquing and expounding upon the work of four of the most important Writers and Thinkers of Second Wave Feminism” etc. To stick all that into Part Four could actually distract and even derail the 'narrative thrust'. It IS some pretty heavy intellectual lifting, which is a big part of why I've been 'stuck'.

But it came to me rather quickly; stick all that epistemological blather in Part Eight” “Summation”. It does need to be related to provide greater depth to the overall context, but putting it at the 'tail [tale?] end' allows it to processed after said overall context has been more or less absorbed.

I'm so smart. *smirk*

~This post is something of a Random/Her Prophet Speaks mashup because of the various elements involved.

We're once again in the process of restructuring our household finances to take some pressure off of ourselves, though I'm the one who seems to internalize that pressure the most...which then kills my writing.

Some of that pressure has already abated and my writing reemerged almost immediately. The form it has taken is a World War Two Sci-Fi novel, which is a double winner for yours truly. The events also make it Alt-History, but that is secondary.

Last summer I had a burst of writing that proved to me on a visceral level that I can in fact write 'novelistically'. That such was cut short by Buckethead's foot tumor is besides the point, though just as well as the work was Fan-Fic and therefore not marketable.

This baby is all mine, derivative though it may be. But it's also highly stealable, so I can't say anything about it publicly. Just believe when I say it's 'crafty' and it blowed up real good.

I'm doing my best to keep momentum going with this baby without burning myself out. Keeping it fun helps. However, the moodiness that comes with Creative Writing for me has already manifested itself, but that lets me know I'm on the right track.

This has also allowed me to look at The Explanation with something other than despair. Plus yesterday's big BIG rant was also a Good Sign. Now if I could just afford my favorite writing paradigm – sitting in coffee shops and greasy spoons to write – I'd be in Hog Heaven. But one thing at a time.

Regarding The Explanation, a Sister said a few months back that I should just focus on writing the thing and forget about Recruiting for now. I already knew that, but the reminder was salubrious.

What you, my Sisters, could do in the meantime that would expedite that process is to make Supportive Noises about the Work. One of you did just that on my Facebook Wall today and I cannot truly express how good that felt. More please...

..and that's the name of that tune.

~This morning I was awake for two whole hours passionately debating The Tranny Wars on one FB thread and Christian Sharia in America on another before I got up to make my coffee. When the exhaustion finally hit me – standing in the kitchen – I realized that this was a quite clear manifestation of my Avoidance, blathering on about subjects that do relate to the Work, but in a tangential fashion, basically a Diversion Strategy.

I shall now take some small action to rectify that....

I have thrown out all of Part Seven – “One Possible Future” and Addendum A: [Tales of the Vekkan Cults]. That's about 38,000 words out the window. Well, I haven't really 'thrown them out', just removed them from The Explanation. They will mostly get posted in a separate volume of Sisterhood stories, though some may simply remain unfinished.

This is my reasoning. Part Seven had become unwieldy; too many unfinished stories, too much rewriting to do, and, as so often happens with Science Fiction, much of the science has outstripped the fiction. Instead of trying to fix the whole mess, I have chosen to restart from square one.

About a month and half ago I started a new novella to take its place, with a single central character whose life covers the major epochs of The Sisterhood. I realized too that this will be more effective because, unlike the original Part Seven, it is a single narrative and therefore will flow more easily. With multiple stories and characters, there is the tendency to put the book down between tales.

With the removal of the multistory Part Seven, the rational for including Tales of the Vekkan Cults is largely gone. So, it goes, as well. [That moves B and C up to A and B]

Regarding the rest of The Explanation, Part Four: “Building a New Matriarchy – Grand Strategy” is still my most significant challenge. *sigh* Part Seven I can more or less pull out of my ass, but Part Four requires some fucking serious scholarly writing and, to honest, I'm not sure if I'm up to it. But I shall persevere.

..and so it is.

~In the past few days I had been having some concerns about my personal quote at the top of Part Three: The End Of Men:

"I am something Other, come to deconstruct and dismantle the present Social Order. But my targets are not merely The Judeo- Christlamic Father/God Cults, but also the weak willed Wicca and the phallo-centric pagans such as the crypto-Nazi Ásatrú. Simply put, I have come to End The Male."

It is true and I totally stand by it and...it IS a bit over the top even for me. Then, earlier this evening, I blurted out the following:

“The Male chooses War because that is his Nature, The Hunt expanded and transformed by abstract and existential concepts.”

The more I looked at the better I liked it, therefore the latter has now replaced the former.

And so it is....

~In the past week or so I made the following statements:

"The most dangerous situation modern Feminism faces is that it is busy fighting for equality in a Social Order that is breaking down. Within that context, what specifically is the real worth of anything Feminism is actually going to be able to achieve?

This not at all defeatism or a call to surrender, but rather to take a hard look at the battlefield and at the goals for which we are fighting. If the existing Social Order is breaking down – which it clearly is – then does it not make more sense to work toward building an entirely new Social Order instead of fighting over the last scraps of the old one, which is after all, based wholly upon Patriarchy?"

..comment to a Sister who is presently volunteering at a rape crisis center..

"This has also reignited my thinking on how Rape Culture is a feature, not a bug, of Patriarchy. I know in my guts, in my fucking balls, how true that is. And how a lot of what I call Victim Feminism is a both an acknowledgment of that and yet also a denial of what that really means because it advocates 'half measures' in dealing with the logical harsh solutions. In the end, laws and social custom will not restrain our deep embedded desire you hunt you as sexual prey."

They are both part of my ongoing process of rewriting/editing Her Prophet Explains: Part Three “The Temple's Grand Strategy” that I mentioned in Blathers [V], where I said, "I do cut myself some slack in that I'm doing a harsh critique of Victim Feminism, the damage done to the Feminist Movement by Andrea Dworkin and Catherine MacKinnan, how so-called Rape Culture is actually organic to Male thinking [Dworkin didn't go far enough in that regard] and a look at how Modern Feminism failed politically both with its support of Prohibition and its abandonment of basic Marxist thinking. At the root of nearly all of these issues is that Puritanism [always a tool of Patriarchy] is still deeply embedded in Modern American Feminist philosophy."

And to justify my nagging concerns about 'getting that right', Layo got her panties all in a bunch over the 'sexual prey' remark, even though she's fully aware of the context and really should know better.

But that is a serious fear/anger driven Hot Button, the primary source of my slow going on that particular section and her [over]reaction pretty much proves that point. Oh well....